Wind Energy: Risk vs. Reward

Molly Campbell

 

In a world where climate change is a real and serious problem, governments and environmental organizations are on a desperate search for clean, green energy sources. Harnessing energy from wind is one of the cleanest methods of generating power because it does not produce pollution or greenhouse gases that contribute to global warming. It is abundant and infinitely renewable, and is considered by many environmental scientists to be a viable alternative to fossil fuels and, potentially, a solution to the global climate change issue. However, like any developing technology, this method of power generation has consequences that must be explored and taken into consideration. Wind energy production has serious negative environmental impacts and poses health risks for humans and animals, and for these reasons it cannot be considered a safe or sustainable way of powering cities.

At first glance, it is easy to say that wind energy is an environmentally friendly alternative to fossil fuels. The carbon dioxide emissions for electricity generated from fossil fuels are estimated to be between 0.6 and 2.0 pounds per kilowatt-hour, and for coal generated electricity, estimates are between 1.4 and 3.6 pounds. Wind turbines only produce 0.02 to 0.04 pounds of carbon dioxide per kilowatt-hour; at least fifteen times less carbon dioxide than fossil fuels and at least 35 times less than coal (Environmental). However, this is without regard to the amount of land that is required for the production of this wind energy. A recent survey by the United States National Renewable Energy Laboratory reports that wind facilities use anywhere from thirty to 141 acres of land per megawatt hour of power generated, more than coal or fossil fuels (Environmental). Because wind turbines must be placed five to ten rotor diameters apart (Environmental), and the average rotor diameter of current utility scale wind turbines is 116 metres (Anatomy), there is a significant amount of wasted space between turbines in a wind energy facility, space that could be better used through a different energy production method. In a recent study based out of the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, it was discovered that one-third of the projected electricity demands of the United States in 2050 could be generated with solar energy on 11,000 square kilometres of land or with nuclear energy on 1,489 square kilometres (Jenkins). Doing this with wind energy would require 66,576 square kilometres (Jenkins). Trying to meet the world’s energy demands with wind is not practical or sustainable. While it is true that the planet will never run out of wind, it will eventually run out of open space needed to harvest this wind. Tens of thousands of acres of forest would need to be cleared, resulting in the destruction of the habitats of countless wildlife species. The natural environment that would be destroyed is worth more than the clean energy that could be produced.

The risks posed to animals because of this energy harnessing method are too great to be ignored. The large, fast-moving blades of wind turbines are very dangerous to flying animals, specifically birds and bats. Many species are at risk of being killed either by the blades or by the drastic changes in air pressure surrounding the turbines (Farmers). Bird experts say that this could cause a chain reaction across North America or potentially on a global scale because many of the at-risk species are migratory birds (Farmers). Supporters of wind energy argue that the safety of birds and bats is taken into account and assessed during the construction of each facility, but according to BirdLife International Scientist Raul Ortiz-Pulido these tests are only run with a few wind turbines over a very brief time period (Farmers). Because the research is done on such a small scale there is a fairly minor injurious effect on avian species, many scientists and wind energy activists consider it negligible. However, a negative effect during such a short amount of time and with very few turbines is going to grow exponentially once the wind facility is operating at its maximum capacity for an indefinite time frame. It is the long term effect that will be detrimental; many species of bats and birds could eventually face extinction if enough wind power continues to grow in popularity as an energy source. Wind harnessing facilities are placing birds and bats in direct danger of injury and death and therefore are not an acceptable energy alternative.

It is not only birds and bats, though, that are threatened by wind harnessing facilities. Wind turbines have been shown to cause a variety of symptoms in humans, which together make up what is known by some as “wind turbine syndrome” (Campbell). These symptoms are the result of constant low-frequency noise, the shadow flicker effect from the blades, and electromagnetic radiation emissions and include sleep disturbances, headache, nausea, dizziness, increased blood pressure, weight changes, irregular heart rhythms, mood problems, chronic fatigue, depression, and tinnitus (Campbell). Dr. Albert Aniel, a physician, explains some of these problems and warns, “With low frequency noise, primarily generated by turbines, people feel that they must breathe at that rate, causing loss of balance, dizziness, and psychiatric disorders” (Adams). Because the emissions of the turbines and the way that individuals perceive them are both highly variable, some scientists argue that these symptoms cannot be considered a real medical condition and are not direct evidence that wind turbines adversely affect human health (Information Paper). Nonetheless, the fact that people living in close proximity to wind facilities have experienced these negative effects cannot simply be ignored. Whether or not all medical professionals and environmental scientists choose to accept this research as evidence, it is verifiably true that wind turbines make people sick. If wind energy use continues to grow, the number of people affected will grow even more quickly due to the increasingly large area occupied by wind turbines. Eliminating greenhouse gas emissions while sacrificing public health is not a reasonable solution to the climate change issue; this trade-off would do our world more harm than good.

The risks of wind energy are not worth the reward. Energy from non-renewable resources can be replaced with energy from wind, however this comes at a great cost— too great a cost to be considered a viable option. Powering the world with wind would mean giving up thousands and thousands of acres of land. It would mean threatening countless types of birds and bats with extinction, potentially leading to a world-wide wildlife crisis as migratory species are killed off. It would mean jeopardizing the health of the public. Ultimately, the negative consequences of wind energy far outweigh its benefits. So, what is the solution to the global climate change issue? It isn’t fossil fuels, and it isn’t coal. Maybe it’s solar energy, or maybe it’s nuclear energy. Maybe it has yet to be found. But it isn’t wind.

 

 

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Mopping with Love

Molly Campbell

 

Think of some popular commercials. How do the most effective ones catch viewers’ attention? Are they funny? Serious? Sad? Simply informative? Everyday, people are exposed to so many commercials that they often see them as a nuisance and may not pay much attention to exactly what effect a certain commercial is designed to have. However, with a closer look one can see that each commercial has been created to target the audience in a specific way. The actors, settings, and stories to tell in a commercial are handpicked from millions of possibilities. In a recent commercial for the Swiffer WetJet entitled “Cleaning is Easier with Morty and Lee,” the Swiffer company specifically chooses to showcase the lives of an elderly couple in order to make their product emotionally and practically appealing.

By telling a real-life story, the Swiffer company creates a commercial that is relatable for viewers. The commercial is set in Morty and Lee Kaufman’s home, and they are a fairly typical couple. A common stereotype that men are the messy ones and their wives have to constantly clean up after them is highlighted in this commercial. Morty admits to being untidy: “I don’t do any cleaning. I make dirt” (Swiffer). Lee, on the other hand, represents the stereotypical housewife when she says, “I like a clean kitchen!” (Swiffer). While Lee is doing her best to get the housework done with her traditional mop and water, Morty just watches. While Lee marvels at the dirt picked up so easily by her new Swiffer WetJet, Morty just watches (Swiffer). In both of these instances it is not that Lee’s husband wants to ignore her feelings; it is simply that cleaning is just not important to him. Women who view this commercial will be able to identify with Lee; at one time or another they have no doubt found themselves tirelessly cleaning up after their onlooking husbands. On the contrary, Morty is a relatable character for men, the messy ones who are inattentive or oblivious to the housework their wives are constantly doing. Lee and Morty are a perfect example of this stereotype, and because it is so common in today’s society its representation in the commercial illustrates something that both women and men experience on a regular basis. It makes the commercial relatable for both groups and automatically causes it to resonate with them. This stereotype has been portrayed intentionally to make viewers feel emotionally connected to the commercial and is one major reason why Swiffer chose to share this particular couple’s story.

Next, the commercial specifically uses elderly actors in order to illustrate how simple and practical the product is to use and how far its design has come from the mops that are standard for people in Lee and Morty’s generation. In the beginning of the commercial, ninety year old Lee is shown struggling with her heavy old mop. She is shown trying to lift the mop up to the sink and wring it out and admits that she simply cannot do it: “I’m not big enough or strong enough for this” (Swiffer). Then, Morty and Lee find a box on their doorstep containing the Swiffer WetJet. Puzzled, Morty asks, “What is a WetJet?” (Swiffer). Lee, who is almost as confused, answers him: “I think it’s some kind of mopping device” (Swiffer). The box is so small that they can’t believe something inside of it could possibly replace their big traditional mop, showing that this is a practical, modern product. The Swiffer WetJet is infinitely easier for Lee to use than her conventional mop (Swiffer). The functionality of the product is emphasized when Lee shows her surprise at how well it works and how effortless it is to use. She says, “There sure is a lot of dirt on there. Morty!? Look how easy it is” (Swiffer). The creators of the commercial exaggerate this to leave potential consumers thinking that if a ninety year old woman can use the WetJet without difficulty then so can almost anyone else. The Kaufmans’ age is used to exaggerate the practicality of the product. Their amazed reaction to this new appliance is due in part to the fact that they are elderly, and Lee’s ability to use the product easily despite being ninety years old highlights its simplicity and user-friendliness.

Lastly, the creators of the commercial incorporate scenes of heartwarming interaction between the Kaufmans in order to get viewers to associate positive emotions with the product. Although Morty does not take an interest in cleaning himself, he is concerned about Lee trying to use the old mop. When he sees her struggling with it he worries aloud: “There should be some way to make it easier” (Swiffer). It is touching that although Morty is completely out of his element in the world of housework, he evidently cares for his wife enough that he wishes it did not have to be as difficult for her to get the clean kitchen that she desires. When the product is delivered to the Kaufman’s doorstep Morty calls Lee out to see it saying, “Here’s a box, babe, open it up” (Swiffer). It is endearing to hear Morty address Lee with such a romantic, charming term especially given that they are ninety years old. Then, after opening up the WetJet and having Lee show him how simple it is to use, Morty remarks, “It’s almost like dancing!” (Swiffer) and proceeds to twirl his wife around the kitchen. Scenes of affection and romance somehow always seem to be even more adorable when they involve seniors, and the Swiffer company takes advantage of this. Through the use of this elderly couple, the creators of the commercial are able to take scenes that would have been fairly emotive already and make them even more poignant. This is done deliberately to give the product sentimental appeal and make it memorable. When viewers see this appliance in stores, they will recall the emotional effect that the commercial had on them and will be more likely to purchase it.

In conclusion, it is very evident that the company chose to feature this particular couple for specific reasons in their commercial for the Swiffer WetJet. Lee and Morty and their story serve not only to demonstrate the usefulness and practicality of the product being advertised, but also to add emotional appeal to it. Lee and Morty are representatives of a stereotype that is seen frequently in society: men make messes, and women clean up after them. Swiffer uses this aspect of Lee and Morty’s lives to create a commercial that is relatable for male and female audiences, thus helping viewers develop a connection to the product. Even as an elderly woman, Lee is able to operate the Swiffer WetJet quite easily, proving its simplicity and usefulness. Morty is very affectionate towards his wife, making the commercial touching and causing viewers to associate positive emotions with the product. Swiffer could have selected countless other individuals for this commercial, but chose Morty and Lee because they make the product practically and emotionally alluring. After all, who could resist the idea of quick and easy mopping combined with a little love story?

 

Works Cited

Swiffer. Cleaning is Easier With Morty and Lee. Youtube. Youtube. 1 July 2013. Web. 10 Oct. 2015.

Effects of PTSD in Military Personnel After Deployment to Iraq

Stephanie L. Spray

 

Abstract

Returning from a deployment to Iraq or Afghanistan changes lives for all veterans who served time there. The more obvious life-change involves learning how to accommodate any physical injuries they sustained; but not all veterans wear their injuries on the outside. Others must learn to cope with mental disorders because of their service. The focus of this paper is specifically on the issue of Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and the effects it has on war veterans who deployed to Iraq and Afghanistan. Symptoms of PTSD range from interference with sleep patterns, to experiencing unwanted flashbacks, and even thoughts of suicide. The US Department of Veteran Affairs (VA) assists veterans suffering from this disorder by providing services such as counseling services and compensation. Despite these services, an issue of stigma attached to military personnel with PTSD prevents some from seeking treatment. This paper will describe what PTSD is, what assistance is available to veterans, and possible solutions to reduce the stigma associated with this disorder.

 

Effects of PTSD in Military Personnel After Deployment to Iraq

Being part of the US military involves more than just fighting for your country and your freedom. Many civilians neglect to acknowledge the aftereffects deployment may have on military personnel. Returning from the War Zone, a guide provided to military personnel by the US Department of Veterans Affairs upon returning from deployment, attributes numerous symptoms to common stress reactions. These symptoms are normal for veterans to experience when making the transition from a military mindset back to a civilian one.  Some of the symptoms include having trouble sleeping, feeling overly tired, having nightmares, experiencing frequent flashbacks of unwanted memories, being angry, feeling nervous or helpless, having an upset stomach or trouble eating, headaches, sweating when thinking of war, a racing heart, shock, numbness, and/or an inability to feel happiness. Most service members are able to readjust quickly. However, others may experience great distress and an interference with how they are able to function. Their reactions are consistently more intense and bothersome and appear to show no sign of decreasing over the course of a few months. Three other possible red flags service members should watch out for accompany the aforementioned common reactions. The first is experiencing relationship problems brought on by constant and intense conflicts, lack of good communication, and/or an inability to meet their normal responsibilities. Second, experiencing poor performance in work/school/other community functioning due to an inability to concentrate, failure to meet deadlines, and/or having a higher number of absences. The third, and final red flag, is having any thoughts of harming oneself and/or another individual. The VA advises service members to seek assistance if they experience any of the red flag symptoms because they may indicate the veteran is suffering from a more serious problem such as Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (United States Department of Veteran Affairs, 2010). Veterans suspected of having PTSD will begin treatment after a formal diagnosis of the disorder.

To make a formal diagnosis, all clinicians must follow a standard developed by the American Psychiatric Association. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders Fifth Edition (DSM-5) is the most recent edition of the manual used by clinicians to diagnose persons for possible mental disorders. The essential features of PTSD are described as being the development of characteristics such as intrusive memories, avoidance stimuli, negative alterations in cognition and mood, exaggerated negative beliefs or expectations of oneself, and alterations in arousal and reactivity following the exposure to one or more traumatic events. The symptoms must last longer than one month and cannot be attributed to the physiological effects of a substance or any another medical condition. Those who have experienced trauma and lived through events such as rape, military combat and captivity constitute the highest rates of persons suffering from PTSD (American Psychiatric Association, 2013).

PTSD itself has been a common diagnosis among Iraq and Afghanistan war veterans. In their article in Psychological Medicine, Sundin et al. (2010) discuss the difference between military personnel deployed to Iraq from both the United States and the United Kingdom. They were able to conclude that the United States demonstrates a higher number of soldiers returning home with PTSD but were unable to conclude whether or not the location of combat has any impact on whether or not a soldier will suffer from PTSD.  Sundin et al. (2010) noted, “Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) has been called one of the signature injuries of the Iraq War” (p. 367). By naming PTSD the signature injury of the Iraq War, Sundin et al. were emphasizing the level of severity existing in military personnel returning from deployment to Iraq.

The VA directs veterans diagnosed with PTSD to seek treatment. According to a study published in Health & Medicine Week, approximately 20 percent of veterans returning home from their deployments in Iraq and Afghanistan report symptoms of PTSD with only a little over half seeking treatment for it. The majority of the veterans will avoid seeking treatment due to the fear that it will harm their careers. However, the veterans who do seek treatment claim to feel it is inadequate for their needs (“Study,” 2008). Their article in Psychological Services (2009), Treatment Presentation and Adherence of Iraq/Afghanistan, Erbes, Curry, and Leskela discuss the need for treatment of PTSD in Iraq War veterans. Erbes et al. reported, “The need for mental health services for returning veterans from the wars in Iraq (Operation Iraqi Freedom or OIF) and Afghanistan (Operations Enduring Freedom or OEF) is substantial” (p. 175). Erbes et al. are expressing their belief that PTSD is a prominent issue for Iraq war veterans and treatment is necessary for the individuals suffering from it.

The number of Iraq war veterans diagnosed with PTSD exceeds the number of Afghanistan war veterans. The New England Journal of Medicine (2004) published the article “Combat Duty in Iraq and Afghanistan, Mental Health Problems, and Barriers to Care” by Hoge et al. This article discusses combat duty in both Iraq and Afghanistan, any potential mental health concerns for the soldiers, and issues soldiers may face when seeking treatment for such mental health concerns. Specifically, they discuss the difference in numbers of war veterans suffering from PTSD deployed in Iraq versus Afghanistan. Hoge et al. (2004) concluded:

Exposure to combat was significantly greater among those who were deployed to Iraq than among those deployed to Afghanistan. The percentage of study subjects whose responses met the screening criteria for major depression, generalized anxiety, or PTSD was significantly higher after duty in Iraq (15.6% to 17.1%) than after duty in Afghanistan (11.2%) or before deployment to Iraq (9.3%); the largest difference was in the rate of PTSD. Of those whose responses were positive for a mental disorder, only 23 to 40% sought mental health care (p. 13).

Hoge et al. provide statistical evidence of the substantial toll PTSD has on the lives of soldiers returning home from deployment; especially from Iraq. PTSD is conclusively a major issue for veterans returning from the Iraq War.


Impact on the Life of the Veteran and their Family

The impact PTSD has on the lives of veterans is apparent. Returning from the War Zone explains four symptoms of living with the disorder in depth. First, veterans may endure unpredictable bad memories of the traumatic event with the ability to bring back the very terror felt when the traumatic event occurred. Second, they may isolate themselves in attempt to avoid triggers (sound, sight, or smell causing you to relive the event). Third, they will emotionally shut down in order to protect themselves from having to feel the pain and fear. Fourth, the veterans are operating at all times on a high-alert mode causing them to be startled easily and often have very short fuses. The soldier suffering from PTSD is not the only one affected by the change it has on their behavior. The behavioral changes immensely impact the lives of their families as well. While the soldier is on deployment, their families were dealing with their own challenges such as feeling lonely, concerned, and worried. The separation may have caused insecurity, misunderstanding, and distance within the family. Resolving these concerns quickly results when the soldier and their family talk through their issues. This allows them to gain a better understanding and appreciation for all members involved, bringing the family closer together. When a soldier returns from war and is suffering from PTSD, their families will still have similar concerns needing to be resolved, only this task is often more difficult to achieve due to the behavioral changes of the returning veteran. In addition to the aforementioned symptoms, trauma and PTSD may decrease the satisfaction the veteran has with their family relationship and increase the likeliness of them being violent towards their partner and children (United States Department of Veteran Affairs, 2010, p. 6, 11). The effects of PTSD go beyond the veteran diagnosed.

Christopher Pupek is an Iraq War Veteran suffering from PTSD who provided a firsthand account of how this disorder has affected his life. He claimed that living with PTSD was troubling to him. His sleep patterns were irregular and his nightmares haunted him on a regular basis. Oftentimes they would cause him to wake up and not want to fall back asleep. He no longer enjoys camping in a tent because being out in the wilderness triggers flashbacks of the war zone. Garbage bags and trash on the sides of the road are triggers as well because they were a common hiding place for roadside bombs. His PTSD has negatively affected the relationship with his current wife and his three children, though he did not care to discuss that in more detail. He added that the degree to which people suffer from PTSD varies greatly (C. Pupek, personal communication, April 1, 2014). His testimony of his experience of life with PTSD after the Iraq War gives a better understanding of the extent to which this disorder impacts a veteran’s daily life and indicates there is a negative influence on the lives of their families as well.


Support Offered by US Government to Iraq War Veterans with PTSD

The US Department of Veteran Affairs developed a guide for military personnel, Returning from the War Zone (2009), to ease the transition from the battlefield to their everyday home life. It begins with a thank you and an explanation of how their deployment benefited their country and themselves. It discusses common reactions the soldier should expect following the trauma of war, the experiences they are likely to encounter at home, positive ways to cope with the transition, signs to watch for to know if they need outside assistance, and locations to obtain the services. It covers the likelihood of a veteran developing PTSD and covers the red flags indicating they may be suffering from the disorder, and what they should do if they are experiencing those symptoms. There is also a short and simple PTSD Screening Test included in the guide that assists veterans with determining whether PTSD is a potential concern for them. It also shares personal stories of other military personnel who suffer from PTSD and addresses the stigma associated with having mental health issues. The guide makes it clear that having a mental health problem does not mean they have a weakness (United States Department of Veteran Affairs, 2009, p. 1, 9, 10, 11).  This guide is an attempt by the VA to reach out to the veterans at risk for PTSD.

In some cases, the VA offers compensation to veterans suffering from PTSD. In their article in the PTSD Research Quarterly, (2011), Marx and Holowka discuss how the VA offers disability compensation. They go in depth to discuss the issue of compensation seekers which is a common stereotype in returning Iraq war veterans who are suffering from Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). In one section, they discuss the exaggeration of PTSD symptoms by returning war veterans but the compensation has no impact on whether or not they will seek treatment for it. Marx and Holowka explain:

Even among other decidedly subjective mental disorders, PTSD is a condition that is especially likely to be exaggerated. Importantly, though, service-connected PTSD was no more common among Veterans who exaggerated symptoms than it was among Veterans who did not exaggerate. This finding is inconsistent with the hypothesized negative impact of VA psychiatric disability policies (p.3)

In other words, Marx and Holowka are trying to point out that even if a veteran is exaggerating their symptoms, it does not mean that they will not receive treatment for PTSD even if they do not meet the standard for compensation for the disability.

The VA and the Department of Defense developed The Iraq War Clinician Guide as an aid for clinicians specifically treating veterans returning from the war in Iraq and Afghanistan. In Chapter 4 of The Iraq War Clinician Guide (2004), Treatment of the Returning Iraq War Veteran, Brewin et al. discuss the various approaches that have been developed for treating veterans returning from Iraq that are diagnosed with PTSD. The methods of care according to this chapter are education about post-traumatic stress reactions, training in coping skills, exposure therapy, cognitive restructuring, family counseling, early interventions for Acute Stress Disorder (ASD) or PTSD, toxic exposure, physical health concerns, and mental health, family involvement care, outpatient treatment, residential rehabilitation treatment, and pharmacologic treatment. Brewin et al. emphasize:

There are a variety of differences between the contexts of care for active duty military personnel and veterans normally being served in VA that may affect the way practitioners go about their business. First, many Iraq War veterans patients will not be seeking mental health treatment. Some will have been evacuated for mental health or medical reasons and brought to VA, perhaps reluctant to acknowledge their emotional distress and almost certainly reluctant to consider themselves as having a mental health disorder (e.g., PTSD) (p.33).

This shows that the US government is taking care to ensure their active duty military and veterans are receiving mental health treatment. It also demonstrates that a stigma does exist in the military regarding veterans diagnosed with PTSD and especially for receiving treatment for it.

The outline of the treatment provided by the VA specifically for PTSD, located in Chapter 7 of the Iraq War Clinician Guide (2004), PTSD in Iraq War Veterans: Implications for Primary Care, provides clinicians with a standard procedure when working with these clients. Prins, Kimerling, and Leskin discuss the importance of informed clinicians regarding what PTSD is and how it affects the clients they will be treating. It also touches on the importance of using assessments when treating their clients. The chapter suggests primary care practitioners should know two things. They should know their patients want primary care providers to acknowledge their traumatic experiences and responses. Also, they should know how to detect and effectively manage PTSD in primary care settings. A primary care provider should determine the patient’s status in relationship to the war, acknowledge the patient’s struggles, and assess for PTSD symptoms, be aware of how trauma may impact on medical care. There is also a procedure to follow in case a patient demonstrates symptoms of PTSD in the middle of a medical examination (p.58-60). Kimerling et al. noted, “Because far fewer people experiencing traumatic stress reactions seek mental health services, primary care providers are the health professionals with whom individuals with PTSD are most likely to come into contact” (p.58). Kimerling et al. are emphasizing that there is treatment available for Iraq War veterans but fewer soldiers are taking advantage of it.


Conclusion

Iraq War Veteran, Christopher Pupek, disclosed that he had an overall positive experience when dealing with the VA but he also has a few ideas about what the VA should do differently to help veterans suffering from PTSD. He noted it still suffers from bureaucratic woes of federal agencies such as having long waits for and between appointments and there is no urgent care clinic for veterans. He says living in Sault Ste. Marie, MI, driving 225 miles to Iron Mountain, MI is a pain in the neck. He also feels there should be more extensive counseling and psychiatric options for veterans and a better way to address the issues of stigma. He believes the VA should provide more awareness programs to friends and family. He used to be an Iraq War veteran who refused to accept he had PTSD due to the stigma associated with it. He stated that when he did finally accept it, he felt enlightened, like a weight lifted off his shoulders (C. Pupek, personal communication, April 1, 2014).

Other issues with the treatment provided by the US Government for veterans suffering from PTSD include compensation and a lack of assessment use. In their article in the Research Quarterly (2011), PTSD Disability Assessment, Marx and Holowka argued:

With so many evidenced-based assessment tools available, clinicians have no legitimate excuse for not using them in their practice. This is particularly the case in PTSD C&P examinations, where the use of reliable and valid instruments may mean the difference between whether or not a Veteran obtains compensation for his or her PTSD. Despite the wide availability of evidence-based assessment tools and what may be at stake in these examination, the available research suggests that many PTSD C&P examiners do not use such instruments (p. 1).

Marx and Holowka do well to point out the flaw with compensation and have discovered where the problem exists. By simply utilizing the tools already available, a better system for determining who receives compensation or not is born.

The most prevalent issues in dire need of attention are the stigma associated with both the diagnosis of PTSD and with receiving treatment.  In their article in Psychological Services (2009), Treatment Presentation and Adherence of Iraq/Afghanistan Era Veterans in Outpatient Care for Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, Erbes et al. report, “There are high levels of perceived stigma among returning soldiers” (p.176). One study published in Health & Medicine Week noted, “The Rand report recommends the military create a system that would allow service members to receive mental health services confidentially in order to ease concerns about negative career repercussions” (“Study”, 2008). Another article published in the New England Journal of Medicine (2004), Combat Duty in Iraq and Afghanistan, Mental Health Problems, Barriers to Care by Hoge et al. suggests something similar:

Efforts to address the problem of stigma and other barriers to seeking mental health care in the military should take into consideration outreach, education, and changes in the models of health care delivery, such as increases in the allocation of mental health services in primary care clinics and in the provision of confidential counseling programs by means of employee-assistance programs (p.21).

An agreeable solution to reduce the pressure stigma places on veterans returning from the Iraq War who suffer from PTSD in need of receiving treatment would be to move the mental health services into a more confidential and discreet clinic while also educating the public.

In conclusion, PTSD is a major issue for veterans returning home from the Iraq War. It changes the lives of not only the veteran diagnosed with the disorder but also their families. The US Government is attempting to assist with treatment for those who are suffering from this disorder; however, there is room for improvement. The current stigma associated with veterans diagnosed with PTSD and who seek treatment for it is of great concern. A possible solution is to create a more confidential clinical setting for treatment and to raise awareness by educating the public on mental health disorders. As stated in Returning from the War Zone, “Mental health problems are not a sign of weakness. The reality is that injuries, including psychological injuries, affect the strong and the brave just like everyone else” (United States Department of Veteran Affairs, 2010, p.9). PTSD affects the way people live and treatment is a necessity. Reducing the stigma attached is essential to open the door for veterans suffering from PTSD to receive the treatment they need.

 

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Psychology of Goaltending in Ice Hockey

Gordon Joseph Defiel

 

Abstract

The position of the goaltender in hockey is extremely difficult to perfect. It entails a large amount of physical skill, but the psychological aspect of being a goalie is more often the difference-maker in the length of a goaltender’s career. Goalies at the collegiate level are having an extremely difficult time making the transition to the National Hockey League (NHL), and it is believed that they are having a hard time adapting to the psychological effects that comes along with playing in the world’s best hockey league. This paper focuses on the psychological barriers that goaltenders face, as well as how goaltenders in the NHL use mental imagery and positive self-talk practices to overcome these psychological barriers and reach peak performance on a consistent basis. This paper will explain how these practices work, as well as how goaltenders can implement these tactics to improve their game. These tactics are intended for goaltenders at elite levels looking to play in the NHL, but are also applicable for all athletes looking to improve the mental side of their sport. Through extensive research, this paper concludes that mental imagery and positive self-talk practices are proven to help goaltenders reach peak performance on a more consistent basis. College goalies looking to ease the transition to the NHL, should invest time and energy into mastering the practices of mental imagery and positive self-talk.

 

The Mental Side of Goaltending

The game of ice hockey may be one of the most challenging sports of all. Ice hockey entails many of the talents required for other sports, but is played on an ice surface with blades one eighth of an inch thick. These components add additional layers of difficulty and make the game entertaining for both players and fans. The most challenging position in the game may be that of the goaltender. Sports psychologist Miller (2003) reported that being a goaltender in the NHL involves more stress and pressure than any other job in professional sports. A major source of this pressure is that a goalie’s performance can impact the team’s overall mindset and confidence (p. 161). A minor mistake in the forward or defensive positions is usually unnoticed to the standard hockey fan. For the goaltending position, that is not the case. Any small error made by a net-minder- results in a goal against, along with thousands of fans yelling at them. This is why the position has such a big impact on the result of the game and the reason for goaltenders being known as the “back-bone” of the team. It is nearly impossible for a team playing at a high level to find success without having the possession of a sound net-minder.

Since the 1980’s, goaltending technique has been continually evolving and improving. It is no longer composed of pure athleticism, but incorporates fundamental positioning as well, resulting in an exponential increase in goaltending efficiency. Today’s goalies largely focus on putting themselves in strategic positions relative to the opposing shooter, adding pressure on the shooter by cutting off angles and forcing them to out maneuver the goalie. Being a goaltender myself, I have always been interested in these new fundamental techniques. After seventeen years of improving on my craft, I have developed enough in my position to earn a scholarship to play hockey for Lake Superior State University. While I am proud of my achievements, I want my career in hockey to progress past the collegiate level, and I am determined to find out what it takes to find success at the professional level.

Goaltenders at the college level, including myself, are having a very hard time playing well on a consistent basis. I’ve witnessed my opposing collegiate counterparts play amazing one night, and then significantly worse the next. The problem goaltenders at any level face, is the pressure to perform. Goaltenders carry such a heavy load of pressure, that it often restricts them from reaching their level of peak performance. Psychologist Harmison (2006), states that when an athlete performs at his absolute best, he has reached his peak performance level (p. 233-243). There are many environmental threats that hinder an athlete from reaching their level of peak performance. The biggest threat to athletes, but especially hockey goalies, may be pre-competition anxiety. Pyschologist Chaube (2013) stated, “Performance anxiety is mainly characterized by an irrational situational anxiety accompanied by unwanted physical symptoms which can lead to dysfunction and/or uncontrolled behavior. It occurs especially in those situations in which a task has to be done that could subject the performer to possible criticism from others” (para. 6). Pre-competition anxiety is a major factor in hindering goal attainment. It is the butterflies in the stomach, the sweaty and clammy palms before the game, and often the negative thoughts on what might happen if things go wrong. Goaltenders often let the fear of failing, and the fear of criticism get in the way of stopping the puck.

According to psychologist Nazam (2014), research shows that athletes competing in individual sports have siginifancly lower levels of self-confidence and higher levels of somantic anxiety compared to those who play in team sports (para. 8). Although netminders belong to a team, they are the only ones on the ice at their position so they relate to individual sports in a lot of ways. Goalies often worry about things that they can’t control, which ends up interfering with what they can control. The one thing every goalie can control, but rarely does, is themselves- especially when pre-competition anxiety enters their minds. Goalies grow up spending thousands of dollars on private coaching and off-ice training, but rarely spend time, energy, and money, on improving the mental side of their game. Many people agree that sports are 90% mental, yet athletes rarely spend time with a sports psychologist. According to sports psychologists Mack and Casstevens (2002), “Sports psychology is the science of success. Studies show that within a group of athletes of equal ability, those who receive mental training outperform those who don’t almost every time. Mental skills, like physical skills, need constant practice” (p.17).

If the mental side of sports is so important, and goalies are clearly struggling with it, then why don’t people invest time, money, and energy improving their mental game? They either don’t believe in it, or are completely unaware of the benefits of improving the mental side of the game. It is very rare for a collegiate team to hire a sport psychologist because they are expensive, but also because many coaches are still old school in their training, and do not know the benefits that a mental coach can provide. On the other hand, teams in the NHL have an abundance of money to invest in their players. Goaltenders in the NHL have regular access to sports psychologists that help them practice many mental techniques that help them overcome pre-competition anxiety to consistently reach their level of peak performance. In a direct interview with Jordan Sigalet, goaltender coach of the NHL’s Calgary Flames, Sigalet shared some valuable information regarding the treatment his goaltenders have access to. Sigalet stated, “Our goaltenders get regular access to sports psychologists if they choose to”. If college goalies want to make the step to the NHL, they will have to master the techniques used by NHL goalies to overcome the barriers of pre-competition anxiety.

Mental Imagery

There are many different strategies goalies can practice to ahieve peak performance on a more consistent basis. One of which is the practice of mental imagery, or mental visualization. The terms mental imagery, visualization, and cognitive rehearsal are all interchangeable. Sport Psychologist Cohn (2013), is an advocate of the practice. He believes that mental imagery is the cognitive rehearsal or creation of a task in the absense of physical movement. Researchers claim that the central nervous system can not distinguish the differance between physical and mental movement. Imagery essentially programs the human mind to respond as programmed when in competition (para. 3-4). Goaltenders often spend time before games visualizeing themeselves performing at a high level. If the visualization is successful, when the goaltender enters the game, their mind already believes that they have been there before, and that they performed extraordinarily well. Theoretically, this then makes the goalie more likely to perform well because their mind already believes they have done it before.  Goaltenders can also use imagery to revisit an old game. If a goaltender wonders why a certain puck went past him or her, they can visualize what happened and go over what they could have done to make the situation different.

The mind is a powerful thing and can often work against us. In order to have success with imagery, a goaltender must be able to control their mind and not allow negative images to affect sport performance, such as imagining letting in a bad goal or getting scored on the first shot of the game. Those fears can become a barrier to improving performance in the net. In order for a goaltender to have success in the practice of mental visualization, they need to recognize barriers that hinder them from goal attainment.  Sports psychologist Cooley (2011) stated, “For the athlete to overcome barriers, he or she has to mentally convince him or herself that it was an image, not a barrier. Until the athlete can convince him or herself, the barrier will remain and could impact the athlete’s competition. The athlete has to find a way to negate the negative visualization and replace it with positive visualization. Once the athlete overcomes a barrier, then and only then will he or she be able to take the necessary steps to improve his or her performance” (p.17).

Many young athletes have a hard time dealing with the pressure of the competition. Pressure acts as a major barrier to young goaltenders because they are not as experienced as the ones of veteran status. Young goaltenders also struggle with fear. Fear of both failure, and success. Cooley (2006) continued: “Fear can be a facinating and powerful emotional response to failure or success. When an athlete recognizes fear of failure as a reason for not attaining his or her goal the fear becomes a barrier to attaining his or her goal. Identifying fear as a (possible) barrier to his or her success is the first step an athlete might take to overcome that barrier (p. 29)”.

In order to overcome these barriers like fear and pressure that hinder goaltenders from reaching their goal, they need to spend time practicing the process of mental imagery. Goalkeepers use imagery for learning new skills, overviewing skills they have already mastered, and preparing to handle both the positive and negative events that take place through a long and rigorous game. Prior to competition, net-minders that perform mental imagery often find a quiet place to mentally prepare for the competition. Noise can often distract a goalie from visualizing succesfuly, so goaltenders might use headphones if they can’t find a quit place. Although every goalie can mentally prepare differently, one might start out by visualizing themselves extremely relaxed during pre-game warm ups and heading into the locker room before the puck drops. One might visualize themselves in the third person to see them self glide across the ice smoothly with confidence. The imagery session is always positive, but not always perfect. They may imagine themselves responding to a bad call or acting calm and collected when the opposing team gets a powerplay. Detail plays a major role in imagery. A goaltender may imagine what the crowd may be like; responding cool and calm while the opposing crowd taunts and belittles them. They might change the speed of the imagery session, picturing a puck moving incredibly slow or extremely fast and they make the save regardless of the scenereo. Or they might imagine acting completely relaxed when facing the opposing team’s best player on a penalty shot. Color is also important in perfecting the detail of an imagery session. Goaltenders visualize the color of the seats in the rink or the color of the opposing team’s jerseys. The more realistic a goaltender can visualize, the more success they are likely to have. Some veteran goaltenders even use scent in their sessions. They can smell the scent of the rink, the concession stand, or maybe just the scent of their own equipment. All of these senses add detail to the images which can lead to greater success in the visualization session as well as greater success on the ice. The length of these sessions all depend on the goaltender. The majority of elite goaltenders perform their session in three to five minutes but some sessions may last a few hours depending on the goaltender’s routine- an aspect that has a major impact on a goaltenders ability to perform imagery successfully.

The building blocks of success in the world of goaltender start with routine. During the interview with Calgary Flame’s goalie coach Sigalet, I asked him, “During your career, what did you do to prepare for games?” Sigalet Responded:

“Visualization and Routine were always my biggest tools throughout my career when I was growing up and playing, especially at the pro-level.  I would always start my visualization days leading up to games, which would start with pre-scout videos of our opposition team.  I would visualize the teams tendencies and players tendencies in my mind so that it was no surprise to me when it came to game time and this always ended up being a huge part of my routine especially at the pro level where access to opposition video was at your fingertips. Routine is what brings consistency and the closer you can stick to your day-to-day routine and schedule the more consistency you will find in your game.”

For goaltenders to find success using mental imagery, they need to take time everyday to practice the skill. University of Windsor psychologist Gelinas (2006) stated that goaltenders should practice “event-day” imagery where the goaltender where the goaltender spends a few minutes the night before the game imagining themselves entering the rink, going through their pre-game routine, and game situations, before they fall asleep (page. 68). Imagery is an underrated technique that goaltenders use at the professional level to overcome any barriers getting in the way of goal attainment.

Self-Talk

What goalies think usually influences their actions. Positive self-talk (or positive self-reinforcement) can help goaltenders obtain peak performance on a consistent basis.  Like imagery, the mind is a powerful thing, and if you can’t control it, it may work against you. Controlling thoughts is extremely important in the goaltending position, as there are a number of elements that cause goalies to be discouraged and take them off their game. Opposing fans go through a great deal of work to try and get the goaltender off his or her game, especially at the collegiate level. Choreographed chants in the student sections, and vulgar or degrading signs are just a couple tactics fans use to get the goaltender off of his or her game. It is vital for goaltenders to stay positive and confident throughout the game. The biggest enemy a goaltender faces is themselves. Goalies are often extremely hard on themselves because of the high pressure to perform. It is easy to get down emotionally, and once you are down, it is hard to get back up. An effective way to stay positive is through self-talk. Hardy, professor at the University of Western Ontario (2004), defined self-talk as, “Either overt (out loud) or covert (in your head) related statements that are used for instruction and motivation for athletes” (Cited in Gelinas, page. 68). Self-talk can have a major effect on a goaltender’s focus and motivation.

A goalie can use self-talk in a number of different ways. Goaltenders may use certain key words that help them stay focused on the task at hand. For example, say a goaltender chooses the word “focus” as his key word. When the opposing team is entering the defensive zone on the rush, he may overtly or covertly say “FOCUS!” which triggers his mind and body to be alert and ready for the opposing team’s attack. A goalie could also use a combination of key words to help them perform. A goalie may choose the words “confident, determination, pride” to help them reach maximum performance. They could repeat these words over and over throughout the game to remind themselves to play with confidence, determination, and pride. Robotically repeating key words helps goaltenders keep their emotions in check. Psychologist Gelinas (2006) stated, “Self-talk plays a pivotal role in a goaltenders reaction to situations and directly affects future actions and emotions. The underlying goal is to reduce conscious control and work toward automatic action” (page. 68). When negative thoughts enter one’s mind, it is crucial that they replace those thoughts with positive ones. Positive self-talk is proven to help athletes perform better. At the University of Thessaly, Hatzigeorgiadis and the Department of Physical Education and Sport Sciences (2011), performed a meta-analysis on self-talk and sport performance. A total of thirty-two studies yielding sixty-two effect sizes were included in the final analytical pool. The results of the study showed that interventions including self-talk training were more effective than those not including self-talk training. The results proved self-talk to be effective in enhancing sport performance, and provide new research directions (p. 348-356). Self-talk is proven to improve sport performance if practiced properly. It is easy for goaltenders to get down on themselves, letting self-talk have a negative impact. When 10,000 fans tell a goalie he is a sieve, it isn’t easy to disagree with them, especially after the goaltender had just failed to save the puck. Goaltenders that do not practice positive self-talk often subconsciously experience negative self-talk. It is hard for a goalie to think they are a “beast” if they don’t truly believe they are. Using a key word like “beast,” for example, helps engrave that belief into their brain and helps them overcome any negative energy flowing through the brain. Gelinas (2006) mentioned that it’s very beneficial for goalies to “practice positive self-talk”. Goaltenders should be encouraged to analyze the content of their self-talk and weed out any negative self-talk in their game. “When negative statements enter a goaltender’s mind, they should be replaced with positive ones. Athletes will be rewarded if they invest in improving their self-talk skills” (p. 69).

Conclusion

The goaltending position entails many pressures that have a major impact on a goaltenders performance. One of the biggest barriers young goaltenders struggle with is pre-competition anxiety. There are many tactics goaltenders can use to overcome negative barriers that hinder them from achieving their peak performance level. Two major tactics used by goaltenders in the NHL are mental imagery and self-talk. Self-talk and mental rehearsal techniques have proven to be extremely beneficial to goaltenders. Goaltenders in the NHL spend time before games working on visualization tactics. Psychologist Keating (1995) went into an NHL dressing room before a game to study their game day preparation techniques. Keating reported that many players spent time before the game getting their mind in the right place. Many players said that they spend time before the game visualizing themselves doing good things on the ice and the goaltenders spent time imaging the process of making big saves (para. 48).

Due to the substantial amount of pressure placed on the goaltender, it is very hard for them to stay mentally tough throughout a season. Goaltenders at the collegiate level struggle to stay mentally tough on a consistent basis. Their season is often resembles a roller coaster ride which makes it hard for teams in the NHL to pick a goaltender. Collegiate goaltenders tend have a harder time adapting to the NHL opposed to players of different positions. Goaltenders rarely make their NHL debut before the age of 24, when every year new forwards and defensemen join the league at the age of 18. The pressure of the position of a goaltender opposed to other positions is significantly different. College level goalies have not mastered the mental side of the game yet. In the interview with Flame’s coach, Sigalet continued on to state, “For me it always came down to channeling the nervous energy in positive ways, which I think is something you learn to do over time as you mature as a goalie.” Between goaltenders entering the NHL at an older age, and the inconsistent performance level of college goaltenders, it is evident that young goalies are having a hard time channeling nervous energy in positive ways.

If college goaltenders are struggling so much with mental battle of the position, then why don’t they practice it? Goaltenders at the NHL level spend regular time with sport psychologists that help them fix any mental inaccuracies in their game. Personally, I have put in countless hours in the gym and on the ice and have never met with a sports psychologist or even attempted to log legitimate time and energy into becoming more mentally tough. Colleges often don’t have the funds or knowledge on the importance of the imagery and self-talk to hire personal psychologists to help their goalies find success in these areas. If the game is said to be 90% mental and 10% physical, then goaltenders need to spend more time improving the mental side of the game. Many goaltenders in the NHL have found success by overcoming their psychological pressures through the use of mental imagery and positive self-talk practice. College goalies aspiring succeed in the NHL will need to employ these tactics in order to master the psychological side of the game.

 

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Dad Worries

Adam Uhrig

 

Dad folds his fingers
dirt and dried blood outline calluses
open sores on his legs and feet tell me
he hasn’t been wearing his socks
crawling when no one is looking

dad worries too much
his knees knock and shake and his teeth
grind as he stutters
he’ll be out soon
he always rebounds

dad is in the hospital again
the nurses smile at his charm and wit
they bring him baked goods and fish magazines
he said he would give up everything to live
in a home so he wouldn’t inconvenience us

“No one visits me” he says
my brother reminds me
I lose focus in school, forgetting
that no one has visited him
“not even the Mormons”